Hi guys, I know it's been a pretty long time since I posted last. But there were a hell lot of things going on. Or maybe I was just busy with other things ;-) So here's my latest post.
Once upon a time...
...not so very long ago, I used to be different. Determined, I cared, I did something for the world.
And over a period of a few months, I changed. Entirely.
I don't think that I've changed. It's the others. And I'm am not paranoid.
How can you change into someone you've always loathed?
It's literally impossible.
But true. I have changed. I have become more sensitive and frail on the one hand, but also aggressive and impulsive on the other. Sometimes I think that I can't quite get my hormones under control, but it's more than that. It's literally my last year of school, butt I don't seem to care. I see all the others with their boyfriends and wonder why nobody kind of... fancies me...? But why do I want a boyfriend?
Why do I have to always get some kind of confirmation? Why do I need someone to tell me I'm beautiful? Why can't I just be confident in what I do? I get swayed so easily. No matter how confident I am, if someone tells me otherwise, I break into tiny little pieces.
It is just so amazing that one person, whom you didn't even really care for that much, can turn your life around.
Someone once told me I was strong. What happened?
